I know there are a lot of people in todays world who believe these dogs to be dangerous. I as a lover & owner of the breed for a lifetime (meaning the rest of my lifetime) am wise and realistic enough to admit that in the wrong hands these dogs have proven they can be anything *their people* ask them to be.
I ask you this though ... if you get nothng else from this think about how the world works as well as all the creatures in it. Survival is key to any and all species. The APBT because of human interferance has become a dog that now has been conditioned to literally kill itself. This behavior is beyond unnatural and it is because of human manipulation.
I understand that many won't care when it comes to there fears and the safety of their children and other pets but if we want this epidemic to stop we must care about why it is happening. No matter how you look at the situation this problem only exist because of humans and will only stoip when we except the resposibilty for it, making laws that truly punish the people who are making these dogs do what they do.
My dogs are loved, vetted, well fed and socialized. It is beyond my understanding why I as a responibile owner, doing it right or my dog whom is loving and well behaved should ever be in danger by name or look alone while the guy on the other
side of town hiding his dogs under the radar is still hiding out his dog whom has never had a license, no shots and is beat and punished brutally gets to keep his dog. These laws are not touching these people. They are not stoping them nor are they stopping the dangers to society or the horrific abuse to the dogs.
Its so sad and to be honest infuriating that I must sit back everyday wondering if that will be the day for my town. Will I get a knock on my door saying your beloved friend has to go while that same guy on the other end of town gets keep beating his dog and continue to ruin lives.
For all those who believe the world would be a better place without APBT's remember that even if the dogs were all gone tomorrow the human depravity it takes to do these things will still exist and will continue.
Saturday, March 24, 2012
Monday, March 19, 2012
How it works.
I often spend my days with more thoughts than I can handle. I have been blessed with one of those brains that is always working. I find many of my thougts come in random and associated moments. I have tried many times to write these things down as they come. Sometimes in the form of poems, letters, stories & just notes of my thoughts. For years I have kept diary's and journals hoping it would help in some way. It has helped me in communicating with my husband and some family but has still not brought any order or routine to my thought process.
All of this said I have still not given up. I will continue to share what I feel and how I think with those who love me and can understand it. I will continue to tell others as I am sure I am not the only one plaqued with this problem. There are many things I have to say, things that are relavent in the world. Things that are relavent to my family, friends & even others. Sometimes sadly though it takes me a bit longer to work them into words that make sense to others.
The only times I seem to not have these issue's is surrounding things that make me angry. Hurt a child, animal or the elderly and there is no stutter in my thoughts. Hurt someone I love and I have no need for a second thought, I know exactly how I feel. I think this is because deep inside I know that I am one person. I have convictions, values & morals that have built me into a person who cares very much about the world around her but is not willing to pay with the things that mean the most to me in order to change it all. Many would call it settling but I am no longer a young woman, a girl. My personal life can be testy at times but all in all my life is beautiful and blessed beyond what I coud have ever imagined when I started out years ago as a dumb, love stuck, thought I knew it all and hated the world teenager.
I'm sure if I stopped caring more about spending every moment of my life now surrounded myself with as much personal happiness as I can I would worry more about the huge picture that most don't even consider. This would be one of my deepest sorces of guilt as well. I often think about how many people in the world really do get it. How many even see a glimps of what reality really is ? Am I deluding myself in thinking I am one of few ? If this is the case I suppose I am saying I suffer from some sort of self importance. If I am correct I am admitting to seeing something in myself that I honestly dislike in most people. A person who is unwilling to make personal sacrifices for the greater good.
I have subjected myslef to so many self examinations in my lifetime. Many times in my life that I have literally had to change who I was to live in this world and what it has handed me. I do not bode well in these cases as I am a firm believer in being true to yourself and standing your ground. I found that hard sometimes as I did not want my children or those I loved to suffer from my convictions. So if you have bothered to read this through I'm sure you understand that the How it works title was referring to my thought processes. This was nessasary for me so that people who do choose to follow my postings will understand why I don't post on a reg. basis. I will post as I collect and compile my thoughs, please be patient ;)
All of this said I have still not given up. I will continue to share what I feel and how I think with those who love me and can understand it. I will continue to tell others as I am sure I am not the only one plaqued with this problem. There are many things I have to say, things that are relavent in the world. Things that are relavent to my family, friends & even others. Sometimes sadly though it takes me a bit longer to work them into words that make sense to others.
The only times I seem to not have these issue's is surrounding things that make me angry. Hurt a child, animal or the elderly and there is no stutter in my thoughts. Hurt someone I love and I have no need for a second thought, I know exactly how I feel. I think this is because deep inside I know that I am one person. I have convictions, values & morals that have built me into a person who cares very much about the world around her but is not willing to pay with the things that mean the most to me in order to change it all. Many would call it settling but I am no longer a young woman, a girl. My personal life can be testy at times but all in all my life is beautiful and blessed beyond what I coud have ever imagined when I started out years ago as a dumb, love stuck, thought I knew it all and hated the world teenager.
I'm sure if I stopped caring more about spending every moment of my life now surrounded myself with as much personal happiness as I can I would worry more about the huge picture that most don't even consider. This would be one of my deepest sorces of guilt as well. I often think about how many people in the world really do get it. How many even see a glimps of what reality really is ? Am I deluding myself in thinking I am one of few ? If this is the case I suppose I am saying I suffer from some sort of self importance. If I am correct I am admitting to seeing something in myself that I honestly dislike in most people. A person who is unwilling to make personal sacrifices for the greater good.
I have subjected myslef to so many self examinations in my lifetime. Many times in my life that I have literally had to change who I was to live in this world and what it has handed me. I do not bode well in these cases as I am a firm believer in being true to yourself and standing your ground. I found that hard sometimes as I did not want my children or those I loved to suffer from my convictions. So if you have bothered to read this through I'm sure you understand that the How it works title was referring to my thought processes. This was nessasary for me so that people who do choose to follow my postings will understand why I don't post on a reg. basis. I will post as I collect and compile my thoughs, please be patient ;)
Friday, October 14, 2011
Random about me and why I Rescue dogs
Beau (formerly Sparky Update) Beau has graduated to being walked on a split leash with Milo ... they don't have the whole co-op thing worked out yet, especially when they both wantta pee in a different spot just out of reach of each other but not a snip or a snap between them ... I haven't even attempted to let them play together yet, they have had their intro & now the potty walks.... I think they should learn how to trust and respect each other before we intro play time and only after a walk because they are both the same size, same energy, both terriers (Milo is not a pitty, just a fluffy little terrier mix) I LOVE MY BOYS and will NEVER set them up to fail ... There are so many reasons why I not only want but need to do this right .. I love my family & they mean the world to me but I need them to all understand working with dogs is not just a passion, not just pity, not insanity ... for me it is something I feel I must do .. I have spent years asking what I am suppose to do with my life now that I have grown from Mommy to Grandma .. Dogs are my *ME* thing ... something I enjoy sharing with my family hands on and in education but I have always been blessed with a connection with dogs that even I must admit at times in my life made me feel like it was curse and not a blessing... I claim to be no expert and have no formal training except my own hands on .. what I do has always just kind of come natural to me as I have always loved and connected well with dogs.
This is not to say I have never made a mistake or misread a dog. I have and I will admit the reason, it was early on when not only did I have that need to help every dog, but I also did not have the actual knowledge and to be totally honest control of my household that it would take to do what I wanted in my heart. I quickly found myself in over my head. I have never hurt over re-homing any animals as the one's in my home I had to let go of at that time and I promised myself and my dogs I would never let that happen again and I haven't. That lesson is part of what brought me into the real reality of dog rescue. Up unto that time I thought taking in the neighborhood strays and neglected was all there was, I never realized the depths of the problems until our family met Diesel (the dog who wondered in and stayed like he lived there all his life and died 2 days later of parvo) this ws my kids first personal experience with a pitbull and it really goes without saying we were all crushed. I had known a few pitbulls in my lifetime, all Great dogs by the way.
After Diesels death I started really looking into the breed and realizing what was happening to them. It was a huge eye opener for me and I have never looked back since. I will do this until I can literally do it no more.
I could not for many reasons at many different times in my life find my voice and instead of living in that I would rather use the energy being a voice for something even more deprived than I have been in those low times of my life.
I can not and will not say that I get no self satisfaction out of rescue and dog work. I am a very blessed woman. I mean this not only by the dogs. I have an amazing family and an equally amazing few true friends who although they still think I'm a little crazy understand me and support me. I am also blessed with the amazing opportunity of having Grandchildren who I feel it is my responsibility to teach about dogs. If nothing comes across as I can be a bit strict and picky, other than we treat animals like family, with kindness & respect then I have accomplished something ...........................
This is not to say I have never made a mistake or misread a dog. I have and I will admit the reason, it was early on when not only did I have that need to help every dog, but I also did not have the actual knowledge and to be totally honest control of my household that it would take to do what I wanted in my heart. I quickly found myself in over my head. I have never hurt over re-homing any animals as the one's in my home I had to let go of at that time and I promised myself and my dogs I would never let that happen again and I haven't. That lesson is part of what brought me into the real reality of dog rescue. Up unto that time I thought taking in the neighborhood strays and neglected was all there was, I never realized the depths of the problems until our family met Diesel (the dog who wondered in and stayed like he lived there all his life and died 2 days later of parvo) this ws my kids first personal experience with a pitbull and it really goes without saying we were all crushed. I had known a few pitbulls in my lifetime, all Great dogs by the way.
After Diesels death I started really looking into the breed and realizing what was happening to them. It was a huge eye opener for me and I have never looked back since. I will do this until I can literally do it no more.
I could not for many reasons at many different times in my life find my voice and instead of living in that I would rather use the energy being a voice for something even more deprived than I have been in those low times of my life.
I can not and will not say that I get no self satisfaction out of rescue and dog work. I am a very blessed woman. I mean this not only by the dogs. I have an amazing family and an equally amazing few true friends who although they still think I'm a little crazy understand me and support me. I am also blessed with the amazing opportunity of having Grandchildren who I feel it is my responsibility to teach about dogs. If nothing comes across as I can be a bit strict and picky, other than we treat animals like family, with kindness & respect then I have accomplished something ...........................
Tuesday, October 11, 2011
Wish I was a Frog !!
Ever heard that old saying ... I wish I was a frog so I could eat what bug's me ...lol.
Well over the last few months that how I've been feeling. So many things on my list in life annoy me these days.
This would probably be because like most of the people I chose to associate myself with these days, I picked the hard subjects to attach myself to.
I hate the way our elderly community is treated, do people not realize what they have done for us, the raods they paved, the sacrifices they've made, only to be thrown away and often forgot like an old pair of shoes. Many live with very limited food, income and even life saving medication. Sadly because the powers that be, those who run our country see them as a liability because they are considered dieing.
I don't understand this outlook as from the moment we are born we are ALL dieing, we are born to die.
I also hate to see slurs thrown, looks or giggles from youngsters,laughing at the old man who can barely walk or the old woman having issue's carrying her bags to her car, do these sorts not realize the word runs on karma and they to one day will be old to.
Another of my problems are the children of our country. Many people see tv commercials about the starving children in other places, send there money to help and don't realize that not only does most of that money not go to the children but that all to often right now the street is a family suffering forgotten because there plight didn't hit the news. Abuse and the mistreatment of children will never be at a stand still and our world is literally devouring our future.
All these things considered most who know me well know that my biggest passion is in fighting for the rights of animals, dogs in particular, pitbulls especially. Why chose them when there is so many other bad things in the world ? Well that is a question that in time I hope you will figure out for yourself if you choose to keep reading. I have said many times that I am a person who will fight for the voiceless, this is true, part of my nature, a deep part of who I have become at my present place in life, everything we go through in life is meant to build us to something, this is my something.
Knowing this many might ask ... You defend our elderly, right ? You defend our children, right ?
Why make your biggest life's work about a breed of dog ?
I see it like this .... Those of us in the human race with a true selfless heart, compassion, empathy and a little common sense all stand tall for these things. There are always roaring voices when the elderly or children are involved, as it should be. It is very true that both are happening way to frequently and have come up in huge numbers as to who is committing them being family members, relatives and to often in the children's cases a parent but our society as a whole (other than these offenders) still see this as deplorable and speak out against it.
In the case of animals esp. the pitbulls because of the media hype and controversy still see them as just dogs.
this wonderful breed of dog whom once served along side our early soldiers, were trusted to watch and guard children were manipulated by no choice of there own and turned into something that barely even resembles the dogs they were meant to be. Deviant people are found in all walks of life, age, finances and upbringing seem to hold no barriers in today's world to shield from these influences which seem to be growing with each new generation as they come of age.
My saddest reality was when I realizes that these people have also wormed there way into our shelters and rescue community sometimes making it impossible to judge who can be trusted, who's motives are pure and who is looking for recognition or money. Both of which should not be involved in saving the life of ANY creature less fortunate than our own.
I think now that this can of worms has been opened I will let it sit and stew until the next time I write as if I continue now this will become a book instead of a blog post ............................
Well over the last few months that how I've been feeling. So many things on my list in life annoy me these days.
This would probably be because like most of the people I chose to associate myself with these days, I picked the hard subjects to attach myself to.
I hate the way our elderly community is treated, do people not realize what they have done for us, the raods they paved, the sacrifices they've made, only to be thrown away and often forgot like an old pair of shoes. Many live with very limited food, income and even life saving medication. Sadly because the powers that be, those who run our country see them as a liability because they are considered dieing.
I don't understand this outlook as from the moment we are born we are ALL dieing, we are born to die.
I also hate to see slurs thrown, looks or giggles from youngsters,laughing at the old man who can barely walk or the old woman having issue's carrying her bags to her car, do these sorts not realize the word runs on karma and they to one day will be old to.
Another of my problems are the children of our country. Many people see tv commercials about the starving children in other places, send there money to help and don't realize that not only does most of that money not go to the children but that all to often right now the street is a family suffering forgotten because there plight didn't hit the news. Abuse and the mistreatment of children will never be at a stand still and our world is literally devouring our future.
All these things considered most who know me well know that my biggest passion is in fighting for the rights of animals, dogs in particular, pitbulls especially. Why chose them when there is so many other bad things in the world ? Well that is a question that in time I hope you will figure out for yourself if you choose to keep reading. I have said many times that I am a person who will fight for the voiceless, this is true, part of my nature, a deep part of who I have become at my present place in life, everything we go through in life is meant to build us to something, this is my something.
Knowing this many might ask ... You defend our elderly, right ? You defend our children, right ?
Why make your biggest life's work about a breed of dog ?
I see it like this .... Those of us in the human race with a true selfless heart, compassion, empathy and a little common sense all stand tall for these things. There are always roaring voices when the elderly or children are involved, as it should be. It is very true that both are happening way to frequently and have come up in huge numbers as to who is committing them being family members, relatives and to often in the children's cases a parent but our society as a whole (other than these offenders) still see this as deplorable and speak out against it.
In the case of animals esp. the pitbulls because of the media hype and controversy still see them as just dogs.
this wonderful breed of dog whom once served along side our early soldiers, were trusted to watch and guard children were manipulated by no choice of there own and turned into something that barely even resembles the dogs they were meant to be. Deviant people are found in all walks of life, age, finances and upbringing seem to hold no barriers in today's world to shield from these influences which seem to be growing with each new generation as they come of age.
My saddest reality was when I realizes that these people have also wormed there way into our shelters and rescue community sometimes making it impossible to judge who can be trusted, who's motives are pure and who is looking for recognition or money. Both of which should not be involved in saving the life of ANY creature less fortunate than our own.
I think now that this can of worms has been opened I will let it sit and stew until the next time I write as if I continue now this will become a book instead of a blog post ............................
Saturday, October 8, 2011
Why I started this blog ....
I decided that I needed to do this because honestly I have things to say. Some who know me would say right away this is either about dogs or kids. Well it will be both at times, it will also include a rant now and then about other things as well..it will also be a good place, Where I update and share pics and story's about my life past/present how it has created me as I am now, how a dog helped me feel worth something again and I grew. Loses surrounding humans & animals alike and how they effected me and my family.
Times spent with my family, and you will probably see post about my grandchildren as much as you do the dogs.
I have been through so much in the last few years and to be honest could feel it changing me, for a while I was a very depressed and broken person (actually at one time in my life I had these episodes often but it was not due to anything other than the fact that I had no choice but to except that there was no use for me to literally bury myself under things I could not control, as I used to stress and worry over EVERYTHING). I tell you this because it took me a long time to even care enough to come out of it that's how low I had gotten. My family loved me but we were at best dysfunctional back then and Creed coming into my life gave me something to strive for, that dog gave me a need to succeed from the first time I saw him. He just oozed love me. I need structure ;)
He was amazing, he learned quickly, wanted nothing but to please and was my absolute prince. He was so excepting of everything and everyone, he became the dog that I trusted to help me with other dogs. He showed me this (what I call a mommy complex in male dogs, like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pl93Hc1uH2w (pitbull Sharky) when we brought Spanky home, once Spank was about 3 months old or so Creed took over a lot of his learning how to be a dog .. it was amazing to watch, for me it was like watching one of my older kids teach one of the younger kids how to ride a bike.
He at moments acted like a puppy in the right comfort zone which usually involved my kid, which he instantly took to. I have done some things I'm very proud of and some I am not so proud of but I am not ashamed nor disappointed in the person I have become. I am not doing this to try and tell anyone else how to live there life just to talk about how I have lived mine.
I would not change who I am now for anyone. I have become a very realistic person who believes sugar coating the real world is only band-aiding issues that are causing the decline in humanity.
There are so many things in today's world that I don't understand because I can see what's needed and I have idea's but everyone is so resigned to seeing no changes they have lost there motivation & dedication and that is in my personal world not just dog rescue related. I seriously do ask myself sometimes daily, Will I live long enough to see it ALL change ?
Times spent with my family, and you will probably see post about my grandchildren as much as you do the dogs.
I have been through so much in the last few years and to be honest could feel it changing me, for a while I was a very depressed and broken person (actually at one time in my life I had these episodes often but it was not due to anything other than the fact that I had no choice but to except that there was no use for me to literally bury myself under things I could not control, as I used to stress and worry over EVERYTHING). I tell you this because it took me a long time to even care enough to come out of it that's how low I had gotten. My family loved me but we were at best dysfunctional back then and Creed coming into my life gave me something to strive for, that dog gave me a need to succeed from the first time I saw him. He just oozed love me. I need structure ;)
He was amazing, he learned quickly, wanted nothing but to please and was my absolute prince. He was so excepting of everything and everyone, he became the dog that I trusted to help me with other dogs. He showed me this (what I call a mommy complex in male dogs, like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pl93Hc1uH2w (pitbull Sharky) when we brought Spanky home, once Spank was about 3 months old or so Creed took over a lot of his learning how to be a dog .. it was amazing to watch, for me it was like watching one of my older kids teach one of the younger kids how to ride a bike.
He at moments acted like a puppy in the right comfort zone which usually involved my kid, which he instantly took to. I have done some things I'm very proud of and some I am not so proud of but I am not ashamed nor disappointed in the person I have become. I am not doing this to try and tell anyone else how to live there life just to talk about how I have lived mine.
I would not change who I am now for anyone. I have become a very realistic person who believes sugar coating the real world is only band-aiding issues that are causing the decline in humanity.
There are so many things in today's world that I don't understand because I can see what's needed and I have idea's but everyone is so resigned to seeing no changes they have lost there motivation & dedication and that is in my personal world not just dog rescue related. I seriously do ask myself sometimes daily, Will I live long enough to see it ALL change ?
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