I decided that I needed to do this because honestly I have things to say. Some who know me would say right away this is either about dogs or kids. Well it will be both at times, it will also include a rant now and then about other things as well..it will also be a good place, Where I update and share pics and story's about my life past/present how it has created me as I am now, how a dog helped me feel worth something again and I grew. Loses surrounding humans & animals alike and how they effected me and my family.
Times spent with my family, and you will probably see post about my grandchildren as much as you do the dogs.
I have been through so much in the last few years and to be honest could feel it changing me, for a while I was a very depressed and broken person (actually at one time in my life I had these episodes often but it was not due to anything other than the fact that I had no choice but to except that there was no use for me to literally bury myself under things I could not control, as I used to stress and worry over EVERYTHING). I tell you this because it took me a long time to even care enough to come out of it that's how low I had gotten. My family loved me but we were at best dysfunctional back then and Creed coming into my life gave me something to strive for, that dog gave me a need to succeed from the first time I saw him. He just oozed love me. I need structure ;)
He was amazing, he learned quickly, wanted nothing but to please and was my absolute prince. He was so excepting of everything and everyone, he became the dog that I trusted to help me with other dogs. He showed me this (what I call a mommy complex in male dogs, like
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pl93Hc1uH2w (pitbull Sharky) when we brought Spanky home, once Spank was about 3 months old or so Creed took over a lot of his learning how to be a dog .. it was amazing to watch, for me it was like watching one of my older kids teach one of the younger kids how to ride a bike.
He at moments acted like a puppy in the right comfort zone which usually involved my kid, which he instantly took to. I have done some things I'm very proud of and some I am not so proud of but I am not ashamed nor disappointed in the person I have become. I am not doing this to try and tell anyone else how to live there life just to talk about how I have lived mine.
I would not change who I am now for anyone. I have become a very realistic person who believes sugar coating the real world is only band-aiding issues that are causing the decline in humanity.
There are so many things in today's world that I don't understand because I can see what's needed and I have idea's but everyone is so resigned to seeing no changes they have lost there motivation & dedication and that is in my personal world not just dog rescue related. I seriously do ask myself sometimes daily, Will I live long enough to see it ALL change ?
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